Working Out: The Struggle is Real

So I have been pretty low key and boring lately. It may have something to do with the fact that my Stinker won't let me sleep more than 3 hours at a time. Did I mention she's almost 7 months old?! At this rate I figured I would get my 8 hours back. I haven't. Other than that I haven't been very exciting. I've been doing horrible at keeping my Lenten promises, I've been to the gym once and have eaten meat like 6 or 7 times. It sucks. I suck. Oh well. I'm also human. On that note, today's post: working out. 

Yesterday I decided to get my butt in the gym. I literally only had time to run a not so fast mile, but progress is progress. I'm planning on doing a spring tri in September so I need to get on my swim- run- bike game. Hopefully the weather will permanently turn into Spring in the Bluegrass and I can get outside to train. To be honest, working out isn't easy for me. To say I hate it would be an understatement. My sister loves fitness, I strive to be her, but come up very short. It could be that the exhaustion has taken over my body, it could be that I have 1 hour for lunch and I have to choose to eat or workout and usually eating (and socializing) takes priority, it could be that if I wait until the end of the day, the guilt builds up that I'm not home snuggling Boo Bear for the few hours I get with her before bed. It could be all those things combined. At the end of the day, I need to do this for myself. I have noticed my self esteem is horrible. I look at myself and hate what I see. I need to make the change and I am. Today. I feel like if I write it on the blog, I'll have all my non- existent readers to hold me accountable. 

Anyways, I wanted to get some writing in today. I wanted to vent my struggle because for some, the struggle is VERY real when it comes to working out. I hope that I can become a better, healthier version of myself. I still have this damn baby weight plaguing my thighs and stomach. It's almost bathing suit season and even though I'll be working a one piece suit thanks melasma line I need to be able to have a body that will still turn my hubs head. :) Happy Tuesday everyone. I promise #tbt and my other Thursday post will be a little better. I'm lagging here. 

#tbt

For #throwbackthursday today I am going to throw back to my FAVORITE places in the whole wide world: Cherry Grove Beach and My Maryland. This girl is a Maryland girl (and OBNOXIOUSLY proud of it). I visit any chance I get. I love hanging out with my cousins, Gram and Bob, sight seeing the same sights over and over again, and just relaxing. Being from Maryland is the biggest blessing in my life. I truly believe it shaped me into the person I am today foul mouth and all and beam with pride anytime there is something positive written about my home. If you ask me where I'm from I tell you Maryland without blinking. Then when you ask how long I live in Kentucky, again without blinking I'll tell you 21 years. It doesn't matter to me. I've never claimed to have roots in Kentucky, Kentucky is just where I live, Maryland is home. I have my amazing little family in Kentucky, but if I had it my way (and believe me I try) my happy little family would ship up to Maryland and continue setting our roots. So here are my Maryland #tbt pics!

I have a million pictures I could add, but these are my most precious. I love my family so much, it's ridiculous! Now onto the second installation of my #tbt post: Cherry Grove! Ever since I was born (literally 6 weeks old was my first beach trip) we've gone to Cherry Grove (NMB) every year. Sometimes as a huge family, sometimes just my fam and hubs, sometimes just hubs and our friend Austin. It's always amazing. The memories make for years of laughter and sometimes tears. It is my piece of Heaven. I have been to Hawaii (I loved it so SO much) and I know there are more glamorous beaches but when given the chance to getaway, I will always chose NMB. I love it there. So here are pics from past vacations. Again, there are a million pics I could post but here are some of my favorites over the years! I can't lie, I'm dreaming of Smith Family Vacay today when it's a blistering 19 degrees outside!!! 

All of the cousins! There are 20 of us!